Trough Heaven... till Hell

I have a black eye.
And I'm proud because of it....
I don't like when someone touches my bottom without my permission and when I say it... the person continues... like happened in the disco... yesterday night... so I punched him....
and... he punched me back...
and then,... it begin all... my friends and his friends... and... at the end I had lots of fun and ... my stress is gone... but... yes I have a black eye.

and... Today is MY free day... I can stay home... play Kingdom Hearts 2 on the playstation 2....

And I'm finding out that Pink has a lot of songs from the latest album that suit m... yeah...

Can actualy I get a LIFE for me?
Seams not...
*sigh*
My university ... is trying definitly to kill me... on mondays I don't even have time to take a free breath... first I have like six hours in a row of lessons and then I have to run to work... and in two weeks I have english "exam" and political economy "exam"... like two days in a row... and I don't even have time to study, fortunatly I have a snake for a pet... if not, that poor thing would be dying... Sorry tai I'm not around... don't die from lonlies ok?....
I don't even have time to do my clothes... I must ask my friend to finish it... are we creazy?????? and besides... I even don't have time for study, i sleep really litle in the last days... between work, lessons and studying... I'm going to die soon...
And from now on I don't want to hear nobody's problems... and... if happens as I said... this: I TOLD YOU... will be read from here... because don't listen to poor stupid Jun she doesn't know what's happening around... but when it will be as she said... don't come to her... she will just sarcasticly lough to your face and then close her door to your face again...

you...


are...


an....

IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lately there is quite a lot of stupidity around me....
I don't care even to write anymore... because is no use...

so you know what: GO TO HELL... BUT DON'T COME CRYING TO ME! Because I told you and if you all are complicated and you adore creating problems when there ARE NO PROBLEMS... then go ahead... I'll live my relaxed life... and ignore everything...

anyway... happy 2007... luv you but I have an urge to kill most of you....

Thank you
~*The ultimate Jun

p.s. I'm working to hard... I know

I really have to write it down.
Can’t have everything in me without telling it.
Let’s begin with hot springs.

After they broke up, I really needed some relax, let’s face the truth, if I didn’t go I would kill the bastard that had his fingers in the breaking up thing.
So I took Tai, that few days before come to live with me to the apartment, I also finally did the third room, which wasn’t used till now, but you never know who can come sleeping at your home, so I did it.
Yamato didn’t come, because he was too busy, I hoped he would so he and Tai could finally work it out.
But… Hikari-chan managed to come.
So the day she came, before she came, I was talking to Tai and… guess what… mhm… I really don’t know how to put this things in words…
Oh, let’s call it as it’s called… I have a crush on his little sister, I can’t understand how he could… HE THE BIG BRO could open MY eyes that I love his sister… and tell me that HE would BE HAPPY to know her with me…
Ok, I like her really much, Kari-chan is sweet, cute, caring, beautiful, stunning, gentile… I’ll stop… better stop I know…
The point is I don’t know what to do about it.
I had a great time with her when we went around, shopping and sight seeing… I presume Tai didn’t want to go with us, because he thought I would do a move… but Kami-sama I’m not just a horny boy… =O=
The truth is this matter I have still to think about it.

The second thing I wanted to discuss with myself was… I come home and people talk that Dai is with that bastard and that Takeru is dating Michael.
Well Dai did tell he wasn’t dating him, and sort of I was really happy about knowing it; while Takeru still didn’t answer me about that Michael thing… maybe I shouldn’t bug him about it. Maybe it’s good for him to find someone else to forget my brother… even if I don’t know… the truth is that I don’t believe Takeru had shown all his emotions… about the whole thing…
I think I’m becoming repetitive… I would gladly see that bastard dead…

The third thing…
This morning Takeru and Daisuke showed up, and Dai seemed so broken down that I resisted really much from not hugging him… Takeru said that he slept at his home but he couldn’t anymore… I know why… but anyway… IT’S OKAA SAN’S FAULT…
I left Dai to Tai’s care, and I dressed up and went to kaa-san’s work, asking her to come out.
THAT WOMAN IS CREAZY… in the near future I think we’ll see also tou-san coming living with us. Well I had a chat with her… more like yelling on each other… and I said to her she is not a mother, because if she really loved us, she would care if we were gay or lesbian or harikrishna or whatever… she also said that it was all my fault that Daisuke is gay… I précised that he is not really gay, he is bi – he swings both ways…but never mind…
I need to check on Daisuke now… to see if he still sleeps…

Matta ne
~Jun

Do you think you are funny?
Or just a great person who has to have everything he wishes for?
Or do you have some sick way of humor?
Because from the first day I saw you... I didn't like you... but it was Daisuke's choice...
Now... I'm getting really irritated of your presence in my brother's live... because YOU ARE RUINING IT! And Who makes my brother sad has to pay.
I presume you never heard about the thing, when you love someone, let him go to find his happines even if it's not you to give it...
No... I presume NOT... you had to ruin, something beautiful hurting both... Daisuke and Takeru, but I also presume that you really don't care, because that means that Daisuke will look at you, BUT NOT FOR LONG BABY... he'll see that you are an egoistical, narcisistical, egocentrical self absorbed creature... and that you are NOT A FRIEND... because if you were a friend, you wouldn't do things you did to Daisuke...
And the part that angers me the most is, that Dai still sees you as best friend, even if you did NOTHING about it... only stabling him in his back, ruining his life and making him miserable...

I'M WATCHING YOU... ANOTHER MOVE LIKE YOU DID FEW WEEKS AGO... AND I'LL TAKE IT PERSONLAY.

~Jun

Look, I don't want to nose in your private life, really...
but you know me... I'm a courious person and you are a friend, and I have to know all about my friends...
so...

are you dating Michael?

Matta ne
~Jun

Are you dating Ken? Because if it's true... you are my brother NO MORE.

We are finally back.
Well maybe not really Finally, I would glady stayed more, and have fun.
With Tai we decided to go for a week in Hotsprings for a week, but we stayed longer, and we made stay Hikari longer also.
We all needed relaxing, I'm just sad because Yamato couldn't come, but hey...
It was still great.
Now I'm at school, I didn't lost much of lessons, seems that they had some kind of vacation too, I do understand profesors, they must be really, really stressed, and what is better then hotsprings?

Right now I don't care what is happening here around, because I'm so relaxed and feeling well, and I don't want to ruin it, because of my angriness... and i DON'T want to talk about somethings that happened and some people, so don't ask...

Besides while we were there I did some shopping, and I'm happy, because I had to spend some quality time with Hikari, and that made me feel really happy, we chated and had fun.

Oh the professor entered... I'll write more soon.

Matta ne
~Jun

I ask my self WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU!
I don't know...
Must do the drama, if you don't do it... you aren't happy?
Or you enjoj in your sadness, and hurting others?
Is that all the point?
Tell me... because I can't recognise anymore... all of you...

...

hey roomie...
Would you like to go with me hotspringing... in Hokkaido or somwhere far away from Tokyo for a week? To relax?
I really need it... ç___ç

*clings on Tai* Pleaseeeeeeeeeee

maybe I did go really hard on Daisuke, but HELL I TOLD HIM!
Sometimes I hate being right about things...
I can't believe that happened...

BLOODY HELL.... DAISUKE AND TAKERU HAVE BROKEN UP... WHY? A STUPID QUESTION... IT'S ALL THAT LOUSY EGOCENTRIC BASTARDS FOULT... I SO HATE HIM RIGHT NOW.

But still, I won't talk to my brother till he will be that way.
Ok, I'm admitting it... I was hard on him, but still he IS still making suffer Takeru, so I'll be hard on him... and besides i'm so nagry I can't even talk to him if not yelling... I'm too much our mother in that way... can't help that he made me angry... no wait not angry.... HE MADE ME FURIOUS!!!!

Stupid brother... and I can't believe I told him all that, that... that.... that idiot will certanly do something and make them brake up... I SO HATE IT WHEN I'M RIGHT...

I'm so gonna ask Taichi if he is for a Hotsprings this week... I REALLY need some relaxing... FAR away from Tokyo... really...

Matta ne
~Jun

I can't believe that it happened.
Poor Tai... I so hoped he would be ok, and having fun, but it couldn't last.
That idiot person tried to bed him... HOW HE DARED... I'M SO GONNA KILL HIM!!!!
Just because Tai slept with Yama, doesn't mean he will sleep with everyone... that's something really... what the hell he thinks... that taichi is some whore or something?
ARGH... TI MAKES ME SOOOOO ANGRY!
Sometimes I ask myself if there is some sane people here around, or it's bettere that I go to some Shrine and become a Miko to some Kami - I'm sure that kami's are better - even the bad ones...
So when Tai called me, I just put the shoes on and run to him.
I founf him there all in tears, and I just wanted to go search for the idiot guy and beat the shit out of him X_x
But I had to think about my friend, so I took him to my place, make him sit on the sofa, and made some aromatic tea to calm him down, and I rant about how some people are idiots, and how I understand him, that happened also to me...  and that he shouldn't worry so much, because some people are just so stupid and doesn't know how to use their brain.
And finally he smiled and calmed down, and I said he could stay at myplace...
We talked till late in the night, and we found that he could come to live with me, there is no rent to pay, just for food and for internet, phone and eletricity and water...And besides he likes my Yuuki-chan, so there is no problem... and she is also sleeping right now... maybe because it's so cold...
Dai went home...
So i have a spare room, and even if dai comes back, there is another room, that just have to be prepared - a bed and a table and it's a great room... I still didn't have time to put together all the app because I don't really have time.
But now Taichi will help ^O^

Matta ne
~Jun

Well Yamato,
I had to tell you about this.
Remeber that few days ago, Tai went out with this idiot that invited him?
Well... that person is a real idiot...
Someone told him that you ad Tai went all the way, and he wanted Tai to do it with him... like he was some whore or something like that.
Fortunatly, I told Tai that if something happened... he should call me, and so he did... and I run to take him from there... and I'm so planing to go and beat the shit out of that bastard...

Yamato... you have to take your responsability and... sort out everything... please.... I beg you...

Matta ne
~Jun

I have still to study, and everything, so i'm just putting this lyrics... the ones nobody got... u.u;;;;


I'm such a busy person right now... I have to copy all the things they did at lessons... X_x and they did pritty much ç_ç
And I'M OK.... I have just lost a little of my wight... but... I can begin going working and at uni as I wish ^o^

Matta ne
~Jun

I know I have to do some self-absorbing thinking to do…
Right now I’m in the bed… watching my laptop, my radio is running with my favorite mp3’s…
I’m here alone…
Takeru tomorrow will go to … I forgot where for a 4-day tournament of basket… Daisuke is making a fuss around the thing that I collapsed… HEY I’M STILL ALIVE… just a little fever, and drained, if I should call it that way…
The doctor said I didn’t eat enough, and that also I didn’t give time to my body to relax… so now I’m in bed, and they don’t won’t me to go out from it… didn’t know that Dai could be such a hysteria person about my health… to think I run after him because of his wrist and him doing stupid things and everything.
I must say also, that I was HELL of a LUCKY person for collapsing really someone near my home and near somebody who knew me…
The truth? I still don’t know what happened yesterday… I don’t remember, I woke up late, and don’t know who came to help Takeru taking me up, I know Hikari was here, and did the lunch and super for me and my brother… such a sweet girl she is… the person that will get her will be super fortunate person of the world… Jun’s word…

I’m still here contemplating everything, now that I do have time to do it…

I was only angry then… and I was so busy I couldn’t even think about it, I just took a little time to write to the two mule-headed boys what are they thinking and if they got nuts…
Com’on now that I think about it, it makes me laugh… REALLY hard… I think the two of them don’t know what did they make of themselves… I told them what I think about it… I told them also that they have too much adrenaline and hormones, and that they don’t have to fight but… something more creative… like trying all the Kamasutra… it will be better for US so we don’t have to watch them always arguing and fight… and for them, so they’ll be happy and exhausted…
Yes, they ruined Daisuke’s party… but fortunately, Takeru took the matters in his hands… don’t care what he did… but the next day, Daisuke was happy… and I was with a hangover, because I got drunk… shame on me, we also had a guest… what did Michael thought about it… I did a fool of myself… had to ask forgiveness, so I took him around Tokyo for the next day.

I have a little head-ache… I should go sleep…
Next time I’ll tell more ^_-

Matta ne
~Jun

Maybe I do think too much... or maybe not...
I still don't want to talk about few things... like me collpasing in front of the building and Takeru calling a bunch of people to take me up... and the doctor saying I'm week because I'm stressed and I don't eat enough...
but soon I think I'll be able to talk about it,...
For now I'm lying in the bed... and doing some stupid games on the laptop....

so tell me people... what do you think about me...

1) CLICK ME!

And naturaly if there is 1 there will also be the 2. ^o^

2)
EDIT: Copy and paste... to know ^o^ just... wanna know... you know ^O^

1) Does my username suit me?
2) Is my journal's title cryptic or descriptive? What do you think it means?
3) Does my journal expand your knowledge of me?
4) Do you think my bio describes me well?
5) Which of my interests surprises you the least?
6) Which of my interests surprises you the most?
7) Which of my interests needs explaining?
8) Which of my userpics suits me best?
9) Which of my userpics suits me least?
10) Which of my userpics needs explaining?

I would really love to know... what you think, just for fun ^o^...

WHAT THE HELL GOT IN TO YOU?
ARE YOU GONE NUTS?
DID YOU HIT YOUR HEADS TO MUCH TIMES?????
DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT THE HELL YOU DID?
And besides, even if I'm happy that you two finally laid eachother IT'S NOT A WAY TO TELL EVERYBODY... YOU... YOU... YOU F****** DRAMA QUEENS!!!!
Do you know that you ruined Daisuke's birthday... AGAIN?
What's with you people, you aren't old 8 anymore, you know you are 10 years older, you are supposed to TALK NOT TO FIGHT...
YOU HAVE TO APOLOGISE... NOT TOO ME, BUT TO MY BROTHER, WHO NOW CERTANLY THINKS THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH HIS BIRTHDAYS!

AND... please... act your age... I know you love each other and everything... but don't be SO childish... even Takeru and Daisuke are in MORE MATURE relationship that you are... aren't you ashamed about that? They are younger then you...

Matta ne
~Jun

So... just because I don't have anything to do... and ... I listen to music u.u and because I was around Dai and Tai's Journals....

so here I go...

So people,
I need help!
I'm organising a surprise party for my brother...
So I need Takeru to take him out on the day of his birthday...
And I need the others to help me with everything... like carying everything up, and then put together the apartement for the Party, and when Dai comes back... we'll all do the SURPRISEEEEEEE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
You know... like in movies....

I would apriciate also to know who is comming to the party so I can know what should I buy and how much...

Matta ne
~Jun